As I sit and watch my days go by, as I wait for something, anything to happen, I cant help admit that I am a little scared of the winter hollydays that are to come.
I have indeed forgotten how it feels like to be alone, to live for yourself. When you give yourself away and exist as a pair for so many years, the moments you get with yourself again are of constant exploring.
This Christmas is going to be the total opposite of the past ones. i feel restless and at times sad, angry and lost. at the same time i feel i am on the right path and that nothing comes easy.
I am tired and running in circles. I feel I am about to be defeated and i dont even know know why. i am always running yet always looking for more without any ray or glimpse of light at the end on the tunnel.
i am just so tired. tired of the same robots, tired of the same streets, tired of the same problems, the same bloody problems.
all i want is hope and peace. all i want for this xmass is to actually find some sort of stability on at least one plan of life cuz i dont know how much longer i can last.
so santa baby, drop ur bag of hope down my chimney on xmass.
Pick apart
The pieces of your heart
And let me peer inside
Let me in
Where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind
As you do mineYou have lost
(Too much love)
To fear, doubt and distrust
(It’s not enough)
You just threw away the key
(To your heart)
You don’t get burned
(’Cause nothing gets through)
It makes it easier
(Easier on you)
But that much more difficult for meTo make you see…
Love ain’t fair
So there you are
My love
Your heart’s a mess
You won’t admit to it
It makes no sense
But I’m desperate to connect
And you, you can’t live like this
Your heart’s a mess
You won’t admit to it
It makes no sense
But I’m desperate to connect
And you, you can’t live like this
Your heart’s a mess
You won’t admit to it
It makes no sense
But I’m desperate to connect
And you, you can’t live like this
Love ain’t safe
You won’t get hurt if you stay chaste
So you can wait
But I don’t wanna waste my love....
